soo yesterday while at school, i see a 'special friend / potential lover' ( i dont really know what to call him as of this very second ) loaded off his ( a-word) ... for those unaware of the slang lingo , he was drunk ----- AT SCHOOL ! so im on the way to the CD for a hair appt ... &&& i ask him to walk with me to the bus stop , because one , the security was near &&& two -- he would've gotten suspended as soon as he entered the classroom ....
anywhos so we're at the bus stop , &&& he begins to mumble some crazyness &&& i decide ( being the level headed young lady i am ) that he needs to go home ... sooooooo , i help him on the bus , &&& as SOON as the bus leaves the stop ... BLAAAAA !! he throws up !! not only on himself , on the seat &&& sloor of the bus BUUUUT on ME too !!!
UNFORGIVABLE !!! so the bus driver pulls over , &&& calls the fire department with nothing but good intentions to help him , buuut he thinks they're going to take him to the hospital ( well they probably were ) &&& says -- " i dont want to go to the hospital , take me home " &&& gets off the bus &&& walks into the middle of the street ... nearly getting hit by a car !! so we began walking towards his house ( &&& i don care what anyone says having to WALK to the central is a loooong walk ) -- fast forward into the day , when we FINALLY arrive , he changes &&& i take his cel to hit up one of his friends to come cool out with him ( because i had a hair appt to get to )
-- &&& so i look through his phone for one of their numbers &&& see MULTIPLE messages from this anonymous female , noooow ME being ME , i read 'em -- i mean im just being honest , i cant have anyone trying to be with me &&& having a whole team on the under . WE DON'T DO THOSE . i mean im not going to go in detail about what was said , buuut lets just say he was indeeed " CAUGHT UP " ... i give him back his cel ( with the message still on the screen ) &&& tell him im leaving , began to head to the door ... he chases after &&& grabs me repeatedly saying "you're not leaving" ... "just talk to me please" ... "i'm not letting you go" ...
once again , just being honest , i was hellllla scared ... no ones here besides us &&& i cant even leave because he's using all his strength to hold me inside. squeezing my wrist so tight &&& pulling on me , had his arms wrapped around me so tight , i could barely breathe ... i got a bit teary eyed ... i was in shock , all my strength wasn't topping his ... not to mention he was drunk . so i started praying like never before ... &&& after a good hour or so , he suddenly just lets goo ... &&& i leave , without even looking back .
he calls / text numberous times .... &&& the horrible thing is , when he sobered up , he didn't remember ANY of it ... continues to apologize though ... im not hearing it . the chances are slim to none as of now ...
i don't even know what to say to him , or if i anything should be said , its crazy ....
... because of the monsters under my bed .
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eyes swollen from
carrying the weight of
heavy tears.
nights swallowed by
the hauntings of ghosts
that aren't too friendly
misery likes to host
parties in m...
11 years ago