i must say today was a BAD day...

soo yesterday while at school, i see a 'special friend / potential lover' ( i dont really know what to call him as of this very second ) loaded off his ( a-word) ... for those unaware of the slang lingo , he was drunk ----- AT SCHOOL ! so im on the way to the CD for a hair appt ... &&& i ask him to walk with me to the bus stop , because one , the security was near &&& two -- he would've gotten suspended as soon as he entered the classroom ....

anywhos so we're at the bus stop , &&& he begins to mumble some crazyness &&& i decide ( being the level headed young lady i am ) that he needs to go home ... sooooooo , i help him on the bus , &&& as SOON as the bus leaves the stop ... BLAAAAA !! he throws up !! not only on himself , on the seat &&& sloor of the bus BUUUUT on ME too !!!

UNFORGIVABLE !!! so the bus driver pulls over , &&& calls the fire department with nothing but good intentions to help him , buuut he thinks they're going to take him to the hospital ( well they probably were ) &&& says -- " i dont want to go to the hospital , take me home " &&& gets off the bus &&& walks into the middle of the street ... nearly getting hit by a car !! so we began walking towards his house ( &&& i don care what anyone says having to WALK to the central is a loooong walk ) -- fast forward into the day , when we FINALLY arrive , he changes &&& i take his cel to hit up one of his friends to come cool out with him ( because i had a hair appt to get to )

-- &&& so i look through his phone for one of their numbers &&& see MULTIPLE messages from this anonymous female , noooow ME being ME , i read 'em -- i mean im just being honest , i cant have anyone trying to be with me &&& having a whole team on the under . WE DON'T DO THOSE . i mean im not going to go in detail about what was said , buuut lets just say he was indeeed " CAUGHT UP " ... i give him back his cel ( with the message still on the screen ) &&& tell him im leaving , began to head to the door ... he chases after &&& grabs me repeatedly saying "you're not leaving" ... "just talk to me please" ... "i'm not letting you go" ...

once again , just being honest , i was hellllla scared ... no ones here besides us &&& i cant even leave because he's using all his strength to hold me inside. squeezing my wrist so tight &&& pulling on me , had his arms wrapped around me so tight , i could barely breathe ... i got a bit teary eyed ... i was in shock , all my strength wasn't topping his ... not to mention he was drunk . so i started praying like never before ... &&& after a good hour or so , he suddenly just lets goo ... &&& i leave , without even looking back .

he calls / text numberous times .... &&& the horrible thing is , when he sobered up , he didn't remember ANY of it ... continues to apologize though ... im not hearing it . the chances are slim to none as of now ...

i don't even know what to say to him , or if i anything should be said , its crazy ....

ready or not .

noooow, i KNOW this is defintely before "my time" ...
buuut this is definitely one of my favorite songs ♥ .

AFTER 7* ready or not .

they don't know .

this song reminds me of him .

SlumDogMillionaire*

A DEFINITE MUST SEE!!
i rate it a zilli stars, off top .

02 . 26 '00--*

an angel was born ,

&&& soon after , he went away to Heaven . 9 years ago my baby brother passed , so my guardian angel keeps me protected every day -- Adrian Jessan , i love you baby brother . Rest Easy

*sincerely ,
your big sister .

Anjenee ♥

inspo.

( i need some . )

tat, tat, tatted up !!

throwback .

"back in the days when i was young ...
im not a kid anymore ,
but sometimes i sit &&& wish i was a kid again ."

..i mean technically i still AM a kid, buuuut i mean back back, liiike when all i cared about was watching Mr. Rogers , &&& Sesame Street , &&& making sure all my barbies were fully clothed . when Chuck E. Cheese was the most exciting thing ever . ( &&& i wanted to go to school, because my teachers were so sweet &&& recess was theeee best thing ever .) Fieldtrips were like Heaven on earth &&& being forced to eat your veggies (although i never did) .



awhhh....goooooood times .

MTB4 --*

who tuned in last night ??
...i personally think Diddy should lighten up on Dawn &&& Andrea , 'cause like they said ... its technically not THEIR fault for the rest of the group not showing . although i see where his frustration comes from .

BUUUUT -- day 26 , they are so sexxxxy to me ! &&& those songs , amazing . SO GOOD , is my fav' so farrrr .

( i cant seem to find it , or i'd post it here . but you can peep it on myspace if you'd like . )

i love you rihanna !

i feel like i too sided with chris , being that one -- i was such a loyal fan of his &&& two -- no one had the official story . i still don't have the true story . no one does besides Rihanna , Chris &&& God .

WITH THAT BEING SAID i am NOT going to post that photo . putting myself in her shoes that is not a photo i'd want to be used for entertainment purposes , nor for the bashing of Chris Brown . He indeed is wrong for placing his hands on a woman , nonetheless WE are not in any place to judge . YES , its wrong . NO we cannot be judgmental , just pray for the two .

i just wanted to share that for some reason . with all respects this is nothing to make funnies with , i too have posted in the past with humorous remarks but after seeing that photo its clear that this is NO laughing matter &&& happens to women EVERYWHERE EVERYDAY .




(sincerely,)
nae .